This Is How I Feel...

But then.. this shows only 50% of how I feel...

:)

Oh No!!

My Friend left for a meeting now.. :| And Oh My God! nobody else is online /omg.. Am like/floor.... What should I do now?? /no.
   By the way... I can play with my dog!! /hmm
 Buh Bye Frnz.. Anyone who sees this is expected to buzz me ! Am Bored . If you forget to buzz me then I would :P:P
/bye

A Beautiful Day In My Beautiful Life!

/hihi

Times passing by so soon… and so fast! My mood is good today and don’t ask why ;)) Weather is very good. It’s raining pleasantly and heart’s singing! Rarely happens with me though! Exceptionally beautiful day.

Am Soo Happy

       Woke up just like any other day and had coffee. Just to realize that today, am feeling exceptionally good about myself and lol.. my dog is getting happier than me !! Shez now part of my family... Now I call her by her name and she runs to me. Went out for a walk with her. A park nearby was so fresh and green. Felt relaxed. A perfect starting for a perfect day, I felt. Played with ma dog for some time and am back home.

My Best frnd :x

        This stupid machine is my best friend. It shares all my emotions! Am happy and so started sharing my emotions with it, posting in my blog! How I wish every day in my life is as beautiful as this one! For atleast few hours I know no pain and atleast for sometime, I love myself and live for myself!

        Oh!! One of my very good friends is online... Shez an online friend, which obviously is, coz 70% of my friends live in my computer… Now lemme stop blogging and spend some time with her. See you all tomoro! Sayonara!

/bye

A Deep Dark Corner Of My Heart!!

Love…

These 4 letters have the world in them...  Many say love is something which makes world go round… I know, my readers might be thinking, love is something which can be expressed only when felt... And yes, I felt it too... It comes quite naturally to every human being, to every flesh which can feel. Am no different. Love can be as dangerous as beautiful. I know because am one of the victims... Cupid is a dangerous fellow; Not very often he releases the right arrows… There are too many guys who love me and need me, but I love(d) a guy who doesn’t love me… Strange game; I say…

                    With the word love, all I can attach is hurt :( . Nothing hurts more than waiting since I don’t even know what am waiting for anymore. Lot of people really walked in and out of my life but he’s the only one I really wanted to stick around. He asked me what was wrong, I smiled and said “Nothing”, when he turned around and a tear fell down my cheek, I whispered to myself… “Everything is!!!” Too many times I asked myself… “Why is he walking away? Do I mean so little to him?” Why is it that he is all I think about? I gave him the key to my heart. He locked it and threw it somewhere. Now, I want it back!!! :(

             Every time I hear his name, it breaks my heart… Sometimes he hurts me so much that all I need to make my day is a smile and I don’t even get that… I know, he doesn’t deserve my love, but I still love him and trying to explain why is like trying to explain how water tastes! I turned so silent in love that am lost and dead to the world other than him! Am alive only to him and ofcourse to this stupid machine! All I do day long is spend time with this machine and keep thinking about him… Does Love really hurt soo much?? I wanna learn living without him but I just cannot let him go!!  Sometimes I feel he doesn’t even know I exist… Some days I Sit staring out the window, watching this world pass by me.. sometimes I think there's nothing to live for, I almost break down and cry!!

But if at all he cares enough to listen to me.. all I want to tell him is… “ You stole my heart!!! So am waiting and will be waiting forever to steal your last name!!”:)

Update on my previous post of my new roommate...

/hihi
Ufff..I never knew even dogs need to take an appointment from their docs Heres my first encounter with a Vet. I take ma dog to the clinic and wait there for hours just bcoz me and ma dog turned up without an appointment. I was behaving crazy over there, bcoz I promised one of my friends that I would turn up soon and I could foresee that I was at the edge of breaking my promise . Though I informed her I may not be able to turn up, I was at wits end coz I never waited for so long at a doc’s even for self. I was like /floor. Its all bcoz of this stupid machine . Whole day I was surfing, chatting and blogging and I ran short of time. Stupid Machine.

                                         The Vet was soo happy coz he says in his 14 yr practice I was prolly the first one to take a stray street dog to him /blush Happy enough to offer a one yer free treatment card for my dog. Awwhh !! Such a good doc That really made me have So far so good with my new roommate. Will see you all later. Sayonara! /bye

My New Roommate!!

Something very interesting and sort of strange happened yesterday… As usual I woke up, said to myself that it’s one more beautiful day in my beautiful life and went out for a walk. The weather was calm, cool and it was drizzling.. How I wish am in love so that I call it a perfect romantic weather. But No :| The weather was quite and cold. No sooner, I heard a weird sound... And I found out that it was small cute puppy (may be days old) crying :( I agree, we in India see too many street dogs crying, and I have seen many too, but this cute one has moved me!! I walked away and looked back at it, then, I went back to it, took in ma hands and walked my home! Lucky dog, it had a warm shower and I had to clean my washroom for hours later. She was hungry and I had no idea what a dog would eat Lol... But I was pretty sure dogs do drink milk. I quickly boiled milk just to realize later that she drank away all the milk and I had to skip my coffee. Ufff... Now, I was at wits end. Coffee is something I always start my day with. She was looking loads better after having a warm shower and finishing off a day’s milk. And then I have set it free, took her to the place where I got it from and came back. Bad dog I must say. Didn’t even care to look back at me when I was leaving. I came home and fell busy with my chores until the same sound caught my attention again. I looked out of my window and it was she again!!  I opened my door, smiled at her and at once imagined how awful it would look once grown up. Instantly, as a reflex action, I closed my door. Something that would look damn ugly would be the last thing moving in my flat!!

                Hours Passed by and I was busy surfing and blogging. Something struck me and I opened the door and still found her there, crying. Now, shez testing my patience.  Told about this to one of my close yahoo buddies to share a good laugh and he suggested me to take her far away to some place from where she won’t know the way back home! I agreed. Took her to faraway place and she was pestering me enough to follow me back where ever I go and leave her. Vexed up, I tied her at some place faraway and moved back home. But something in me was wanting it back :(:|

               I came home and went back again to her, don’t ask me why. And alas! I have a new roommate. I named her….. Grrrrr  Don’t ask me, coz I named her after the nick of the online guy who asked me to leave her.. coz I love his nick as much as I do mine lol..  I know,  she might not be one of those beautiful things around when she grows up, but yes, am already in love with it to find her beautiful enough no matter how old she is!! Its been more than 24 hours I found her and we already are enjoying each other’s company!!  This is her first ever pic!!